A month ago I sat at the computer trying to decide weather or not to publish a new post on Thrive. It was short and sweet – just a quick note to say that Thrive was closing it’s doors and to thank everyone for their support during the last year and a half.
This year has taken me places I never imagined with all of the usual gut-checks on work-family-life-me time that go with it. When I sort of fell off the bloggy edge of the world a few months back, I just closed my browser and walked away. I didn’t sign off. I didn’t check email. Nothing. I’ve worried for months about friendships hurt, relationships damaged, bridges burned and readership lost.
And so I sat here last month with my hand hovering over the publish button wondering if walking away for good was really the right thing to do. I asked myself if this was me finally surrendering to a new reality of I-just-can’t-do-this-anymore or simple an act of sabotage by someone afraid to succeed as much as fail. After several minutes I finally closed the computer and walked away once more. I had made a choice … a scary one … but one I believe in like I haven’t in so long.
Because my time away from here and my almost-goodbye made me realize a few things:
I still believe in the idea I had for THRIVE when I first launched this site.
I still love creating and crafting without spending a dime.
I still get emails from wonderful women around the world sharing their stories of thriving and I cherish the feeling of not being alone.
And even if I post less often than other sites, it’s still worth doing.
So I took that scary first step back Wednesday night and found myself at KSL 5 in Salt Lake City for a bloggers meet and greet. Me and 40 or so other bloggers were invited down to the KSL studios to mix, mingle and get a behind-the-scenes look at the TV and radio side of broadcasting. I’m privileged to live close to so many talented bloggers and was excited to meet up with them again. Well … excited and nervous. And of course Wednesday was one of those crazy days that went sideways from the start and I almost backed out. But thanks to a quick pep talk from Mr. Thrive, I put on my big girl pants, a shirt that was a total mistake and got in the car. (And let’s be honest: when you’re plus-size, everyday is technically a ‘big girl pants’ sort of day, but you get my point.)
(Leanne from Organize & Decorate Everything and Me)
And I’m so glad I did.
This was just what I needed: a chance to get out back out there with the amazing ladies in blog land and reconnect … to chat about SEO strategies … copyright infringement … our love/hate relationship with Pinterest … summer plans with our kids … upcoming projects and features … how bad we wanted to win one of the killer Kaboo bags up for grabs even though some of us (me) don’t actually own iPads … who was going to EVO … finding gas for under $3.50/gallon … and just generally trying to make it all work with life and families in the mix.
(Can you find mine?)
Oh, and did I mention that being down at KSL 5 was crazy awesome?
(And no this isn’t a sponsored post.)
I’d never done a behind the scenes thing for TV or radio before and had a blast. I love this channel and listen/watch them regularly. They ‘get’ the value of blogging and women in social media. And more than any other station around here, they actively involve bloggers in lifestyle, DIY and parenting segments in addition to the regular ‘experts’ that usually get trotted out. Or maybe that’s just it: they see us ‘mommy bloggers’ as experts in our own right with something important to share.
And so I shared, too.
(KSL social media rockstar Natalie (in the grey) + the KSL evening anchor team)
Each of us was handed a news script and told that we’d get a chance to tape our own segment from the news desk.
While one of the evening anchors, Mike Hedrick, was going over the short hand symbols on the script, he casually asked me what I blogged about.
“I registered my domain for THRIVE the day we got our first foreclosure notice in the mail.”
And Mike stopped dead in his tracks and looked straight at me. “Really?” he asked in a surprised, yet thoughtful tone as he stood there waiting for me to continue.
And then I told my story.
And I told him how passionately I believe that creativity doesn’t have to be a casualty of financial hardship. And I told him that you could do crazy things like try and remodel your house, clothe your kids and decorate for the holidays without running to the store. And I told him that this unwelcomed change has become one of my biggest blessings.
And then I told him about your stories, your triumphs, and the awesome things this community of women connected by hardship and energized by creating is doing.
Mike smiled and listened and asked questions and smiled and asked questions some more.
Ten minutes later I still had no idea how to anchor the news, but I felt absolutely sure that pushing forward with the whole ‘rock-what-ya-got’ message was exactly what I wanted to do. Of course I still had to do the anchoring thing in the same bad idea of a shirt without a clue what words like **VOT** and **(BOTTOM THIRD)** meant, but I got through it. Sorta.
(Thanks to the awesome Natalie from Boogers On The Wall for co-hosting with me!)
My first news story couldn’t have been more perfect.
Yup, Penn State. I’m still part of that 61 percent.